A Story That Will Haunt My Life...

yesterday was my birthday..
suppose to be a memorable one...
but it become a worst history in my life...
a worst one...
a history he created im my life...
he has been so cruel to me...
he not only a taurus bull but a real bull...
why must he say it on my birthday???
all under his arrangement alr izit??
i have a very hard feeling..
im so down that day
i duno how to let him go...
im serious in this relationship...
for all this time he jz treat me like his sister...
how selfish is he...
he always say he dun mean to hurt me but he always do...
all the way he jz trying his best to love me..
not sincere... not from his heart...
he say giving us a week time to think whether we still need each other anot??
in his heart he dun need anymore even if i say i need him...
he dun need anymore... 1 week time is jz a liar...
he say dun wan me to be dissappointed..
but he alr dissappointed me....
on that day oni tell me he dunno wanna give what reaction to me...
n even how to face me???
it's mean it's not only my wrong all the way...
he might be done something wrong rite???...
fooling me around....
at first he say he go after me coz he love me...
next he say he cant get any feling towords me...
what the helll.... "yi shi yi yang"
keep on saying he is telling the truth wanna sincere to me...
the point is all the way he is telling lies to me... cheat me...
on my birthday oni wan to sincere with me...
on my birthday oni wanna honest to me...
on my birthday oni hurt me so deeply..
on my birthday oni say me i make him insecure??
i think he is the one who make me insecure...
he feel guilty?? coz he doing the wrong things, lies frm the beginning...
why he change all sudden???
izit become he fall for someone else ma???
c****? m*****? H** ***g? who?? who else he always meet??
dont let me know it... dont think i cant be a monster at the end of the day...
he change my life... he controled my life...
he scolded me i let him scold...
he want me to change to a gal he hope to have...
how about him??
why dun he look at himself first??
why dun he change too...
expecting me to change only ma???
until now im still asking myself shud i let him go??
set him free???
but how??? Time will proof to me...
i believe without him it's "not end of the day"...